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May 31, 2005

Keeping The Faith

Keeping The Faith

Well I had a website that I was posting on but have since decided my writing works should be meant for friends and family .I have been writing articles on and off for awhile now. I used to do it sporadically but then I found it was great therapy and started doing it whenever I felt an ache, such as a heartache .I have changed a lot especially in the past two years. I talk of the past as if it were 20 yrs ago, but I have come such a long way in the past couple of years. I felt the need to elaborate .I feel as if I have lived a lifetime. Two years out of 31, which is now how old I am. The past year has been a major change for me. Why was this past year so much more significant than any of the others? Because I believe that was my year of awakening.

I look back over the articles from the past and all the words I put down. I look at all the patterns. What was it I wanted to say, more importantly what was it that I wanted. I noticed I spoke a great deal about my friends, but rarely of family. I noticed I spoke of loyalty, my son and the people who I relied on. I spoke of disappointments, but I also spoke of pulling myself through. I noticed I used the word support a lot. I believe I wrote many times, "I am a person who needs support". I want you all to see the new patten I have created, the one that is going to take me far. It is a pattern of true love, and Faith. Loving who? Loving what? Faith in who? Faith in what? Love is loving the world and all that inhabit it. Every person in this world. I look out at them as I would my dearest friend. I have learned to forgive and I mean really forgive. Sometimes forgiving is simply forgetting. Before I would have said it is impossible to forget things, certain things. But it isn’t. To truly forgive is to start over. On a clean slate and all memories need to be at the least extinguished, maybe not completely blocked out but you think of it in more of a what did I learn here state of mind and all can be forgiven.

Nothing happens to us that we don’t in some way, no matter how major or minor, allow to happen. I say that because it is the decisions we make that leads us down a certain road. Where we end up is a result of that first step. Do you understand what I mean when I say that? I know how to love unconditionally. I knew anyways right, didn’t you? I have a son. I love him unconditionally. The most precious gift I have received of this world. How do I love others unconditionally? I love them through the act of knowing that they are human. As well as myself. If I expect you to over- look all of my flaws and mistakes, do I not owe you the same respect? I may never say again that you are an enemy. I will simply say you are my friend. And I will mean that I know all in all people are genuinely good. Everyone no matter who you are has the ability to be a great person. And to do great things. That is our purpose here to do what you can to initiate the good in someone else. Do you believe that?

Now onto Faith. Kind of a small word with a huge meaning. To have faith to have faith in what? In who? Well I put my faith in what has never let me down, never disappointed me, never turned away from me, never left me alone. That is my creator and yours, God. I put my faith in my Savior, and yours if you allow him to be, and that is Jesus Christ. I was raised with knowing and believing. The majority of my family are believers, to different degrees and passions. I have started to write articles on my faith many, many times but in the end I felt I didn’t have the capacity to do it or the justice so I never printed them. I can tell you right now I got it. I don’t just say I am a Believer, I truly believe. I don’t just say I am a Christian, I really am. I am a spiritual child of God. I am devoted, truly a devoted daughter of The Almighty. My Savior is the One and Only Jesus Christ. I don’t know anyone out there that would give their body for me and all of you. I don’t know anyone who would stand up and say you have done all of these unholy things, you are a sinner with no remorse you are in a constant state of, what can you do for me, what will the world do for me? And even though you have done all of these wrong things, committed all these sins have even committed these sins against me. I am going I am going to die for you, bleed for you and die for you, suffer humiliation for you and die for you. Because I love you, and I do not expect anything back except your acknowledgment of what I have done for you, acknowledge My name and who I am, and your salvation will be awarded you. Who would do that for you?

I have been through the ringer in my life. Many times I have felt alone. But I also had the ability to look inside and actually feel the Presence of something bigger something better. An inkling that I wasn’t really alone. You will see that in articles I write I always dedicate then to my son. And to God and Jesus. I always said thank you. It was then and there that all this was coming to play. They have never deserted me or abandoned me, and folks I was unworthy of it. I have made some mistakes. I still struggle with making mistakes, but They were a constant in my life. Even from a very young age I knew when things got bad I only had to pray and a sense of peace flooded me until I was calm. I have been reminded over and over that They have been with me through every cross- roads, journey, heart break and heart ache. Every small thing to the grandest of things.

When I confessed all of my sins, and I said these words it changed my life. I cannot do this without You, when I have had nothing and noone You were with me. I always felt You near me, I was comforted in that feeling, You waited on me, I cannot live my life without You, I don’t ever want to live my life without You, please always stay with me and guide me, I cannot do it without You, I cannot function without You, I couldn’t take another breath without You, I am nothing without You, but I am everything with You.

I begged for forgiveness. I was grateful for receiving that. Guess what?? I have to remind myself of all that at times, I remember my own words, there are things I want to do at times, but I also think I don’t want to let You down and I know Your plan for me will be greater. I know You are looking out for me and just because I want this now I know in my heart You are trying to keep me from making a big mistake that I will regret over and over gain, so I need to listen and I have been trying my best. I am not saying it is always easy, but I put the effort in and I try. When I do listen my life is perfect. I feel a little sad right now, why? Because I am blessed with so much and I look at my friends and my family and I see sadness and broken hearts. I see lives that are in turmoil and sadness. So I wrote this to reach out to all of you and say look at my life now and look at it back then. For those who have known me for so long. What do you see? Is my life different? Do you know why? And then I proceed to tell them of the glory I have seen. I cannot tell you of all the things I have been given. I am not talking just materialistically either because I don’t care about that. I my need money to live on, but it sure doesn’t make me happy. I may need it to live on but not to live. I have had my share of blessings with money also though and I can’t complain. When I need it, it’s there and I have always struggled with money. What you give you receive believe that. We will always be given what we need to survive, it is a promise and it is true.

My son, my pride and joy, is a healthy young man, and as precious as a child can be, he is smart, he is healthy and happy. That is a gift to me. My family and I are very close. I may not mention them a lot but we are very close. I love each and every one of them. They are all special in so many ways. I wouldn’t know what to do without them. They have also helped shape and form the person I am today. I have a great relationship with my mom, and I love her dearly. She has done so much for me throughout my life and I can’t thank her enough. Also all my aunts, uncles, cousins, brother , sisters, all of these people, my grandpa, they have all been remarkable blessings to me. And they always are. I am proud of my family. My friends, my best friend, Teresa, she will kill me for using her name. I love her to death. She has been my constant through so many things. I hope I give her back a fraction of the loyalty she has given me. My other friends are just as important and special. I can’t name them all but C, R, J, K, B, C many of you. I won’t use all your names just initials. My ex-husband I am grateful for him, because he helped to give me the wonderful gift of my son, Dakota. And he has given me his friendship. He also helped shape the person I am today.

Now down to other things. I have been blessed with a vehicle once again, may not be a big deal to some, but I HAVE A CAR! I have food to eat and clothes to wear. I have a place to call home. And it is my home. I may not own it but it is mine to take care of and I am thankful for that. I am going to school! Who would have guessed and I love it too. I have met a lot of great people, students and instructors. Who instead of calling fellow collegians, I am beginning to now call friends. I have been blessed over and over again. I just needed to take the time and say why, and how and mainly WHO. So please have faith in all you do, believe in your heart you can do it, always have faith in a Higher Power and believe in His love, unending, and prove to Him and yourself that you are worthy and you can and will be somebody special. God Bless and Keep each and every one of you..follow your heart and dreams and pass this on if you know somebody in need. Take care.

Vaughn Pascal

To God and Jesus, Thank you.

To Dakota, I love you.

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Just Learning To Cope

I have been thinking about this all night. I am realizing that there are more and more people dealing with anxiety. I have my opinions in regards to anxiety and I have written my own story in dealing with that. I am thinking of starting a support network for individuals and families dealing with this. Anxiety is debilitating. Anxiety begins with a fear that ends up an obsession. I personally think that anxiety is the result of feeling out of control. You are at a point where your life and world has now become out of control. It is to much for a person to handle and that is where your fear begins. I am no doctor but I know from experience if you have not experienced this you will never understand and you could not possibly. That is why I would like to start a support network. If you are dealing with it you need to be able to access someone who has dealt with it and know YOU ARE NOT ALONE, and I do believe this to be the biggest relief. Anxiety can be a result of feeling alone, a fear that becomes an obsession. I think everyone who has been through this will understand that simple sentence.

I am going to give you some examples of anxiety and hopefully some tips. My anxiety started when I felt out of control in my life and hopeless. Anxiety can and will lead to depression. I don’t believe it always starts with depression though. I think depression is totally opposite or at least different and I don’t really know much about that or how to control it. Anxiety can start from a feeling or fear of something, it can also be caused from a feeling of inadequacy. That possibly you can’t live up to the standards of someone or the world. Maybe it is a fear of rejection, maybe a fear of loss, of control, a fear of not being good enough. The fear comes from believing that, and being alone in that thought. A lot of people worry. It is potent in our lives every, single day. If you know of anyone whom has never been worried, send them my way. I want to know their secret in living a ‘worry free’ life.

My personal fear, was the fear of death, and It still is to this day. I am now a Christian and I am a faithful one. Why would I fear death? I think I fear it the most simply because I don’t feel my life or my purpose has been accomplished as of yet. But does not God know when my life has made a difference? Do I not trust in Him to lead my life and to take me home when the time is right for Him? If I am dedicating my life to God , To Jesus, then I should trust in Him to know what is best for me and my life. Only He knows. I think other fears about death are simple, not leaving the people l I love, maybe I feel there is things I am guilty of, and wonder whether I will be forgiven if those. Yes, if I died my family would be left behind for a moment, but if they be Christians, they shall be resurrected as me, so it is a momentary lapse in time and a moment without them. If I am guilty and harbor feelings of guilt then I need to be repenting of those. I Need to ask forgiveness and I will be forgiven. We belong to a Loving God. He loves each of us so very much. I am so thankful for that and we all should be. He is a patient God that waits for us patiently and with true love and an even bigger heart. I am so, so grateful for that. I know these things but this anxiety seems to overwhelm you to a point of distraction.

I will tell you though this fear that becomes an obsession can be controlled in many ways. One is to have obsessive feelings. Now I know you are thinking what?? Obsessive feelings, yes obsessive feelings. Those obsessive feelings should be with God. Have an obsessive relationship with God. Well the world tells you to not be obsessive about things, even the bible tells you to not covet things, to not wish for things you don’t have. We do have a relationship with God and Jesus, if you allow yourself to experience that it will lead you away from this and I promise you that. Be obsessive about God! He wants you to be. Hold that relationship above everything else. People become obsessive in thoughts and actions with a lot of outside things. Maybe work, maybe family, home, money, status, materialistic things and even people, why not make your obsessive focus be on God?? If you put Him above all else, you will see your life take shape and change.

I figured out my anxiety. My fear that became an obsession is because of my inability to do that, I feel at times I can handle it by myself. I am not going to trouble God with every moment in my life there are so many people who need help with major issues, so many people who are at a loss in life they NEED to find God and He needs to help them. Well this maybe true, BUT I am not in control of my life, and when I am going through something, He wants me to depend on Him, if I don’t that is a slap in His face. What am I saying, ‘I can do it without you and I am more in control of my life than You’. I am also saying, ‘I can handle it without you’. Well, what would make me think for a moment that my life is in anyway in my control, because when I have had (what seemingly) I felt was control over my life, it was a total disaster. God wants to be BOTHERED with the mundane. If you feel like you can’t handle it turn to Him. You had better anyways or your giving control to someone or something else. If it is minor He wants to be bothered, He wants you to ask Him for advice. He wants you to be dependent on Him, and we should be. He created us, He loves us, above everything and everyone else. We all have the ability to have this very special relationship with God. Each of us is so special and so unique, do you not see that?

Anxiety, a fear that turns into an obsession. What are the symptoms: they can be minor, maybe feel a little anxious, everyone has felt that right, a little nervous, then with anxiety it gets a little more pronounced, maybe wow, I can’t shake this feeling, maybe your head begins to hurt, but anxiety settles in your stomach, usually, it is a tightening, and it moves upwards, most of the time it centers (in the end) in your chest, that is why a lot of people feel they are having a heart attack. They feel that this is the end, and than your mind develops into a death thought and it becomes a vicious cycle. Just a thought, this anxiety ends up in your chest around your heart , why? It could end with a headache, or something else, arm pain, just a thought, but it centers in your chest around your heart, making you feel like you are having a heart attack, you are having feelings of doubt, worth, guilt, you are out of control in your life, you are out of control in your body, this is your wake up call and be glad for it. I feel this anxiety settles in your chest because you need to follow your heart, follow it back to God. You want to go through your life feeling like you have control just to feel yourself falling out of it again and again, go ahead. In the end when you are there and it is your time you are going to be asking help from someone whom has always been there, but you have decided not to have a relationship with Him, have turned away from Him, and you have nothing to offer in the end. You need to take a step. This is so weird because my aim was to talk about anxiety and once again I was led back to God with this story.

In every situation in life if you are out of control if you are engulfed in fear, it is because your life is not on track, somewhere you have lost your way. I am suggesting you find your spirituality and stick with it. For the past week and a half I have been having anxiety attacks, for the first two days, when it started it was bad. I felt I could handle it, I was determined not to go back on meds. I hate taking meds. but I also was trying to do it alone. I didn’t need to bother God with that, oh yes I did. He wants to be apart of your life daily, through the exciting times to the mundane and when you are hurting and out of control that is when You had better look to Him, because no amount of medicine and therapy will heal your soul and you better believe that. God is the one looking out for you for eternity. He isn’t going to give you a quick fix, a here and now moment of relaxation and stress free life, that comes from believing in Him, and knowing when you do leave this earth you are going to a wonderful, perfect place, where all your friends and family have gone before you. You will get to look upon the One who has loved you, your entire life. You will get to see the One who gave His life for you and did so with an innocent heart and you will be free of this disease.

Anxiety can grip you to the point of depression, it can also shut your body down. When I was first diagnosed, it was when I was having trouble in my life, my life was out of control, I felt hopeless, bad people don’t get this, people who know they need something more in their lives, people who are reaching out for more get this and you need to look at it as a gift. I couldn’t breathe when I had this, it would grip me and take hold and I couldn’t function. It encased my life. It became an obsession. I didn’t ever want to have an attack again. I never wanted to feel this out of control. It ‘centers in your stomach, but it ends around your heart’, believe me it ends "within your heart". It ends "within our soul", and your relationship with God and Jesus. I could go take medicine, that may control it for a moment, it may end for a long while, but in the end, medicine is not going to help me to Heaven, and God is the only cure that is lasting, ever lasting and eternal. God Bless You and keep you and may you find Him in good times and bad.

Vaughn Pascal

Thank you God, thank you Jesus.

I love you!

I love you Bub!

One more for You, My Creator, My Father, My Lord, My Savior........

Please allow me to continue your work through me...

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Everybody Is Somebody

Everyone is Somebody

I wrote about my life and all that I have had to go through.

I also ended that story with a little bit about how my life has since changed, but I want to take it further.

I want you to see me how I was then and how I am now.

Am I changed much?

Yes, I am no longer the person who went through all those things.

You may look at me and think, "man I feel sorry for that person" or at least think, "that person went through a lot".

Yes, I did but I am grateful for those things.

Now you are probably thinking, grateful??

How can you be grateful??

Well, I am, simply because it made me who I am today.

You see I was never alone in my life.

You are not alone in your life.

I can prove it to you and by the end of this you will see.

I always had faith in something bigger than this world, bigger than me and the people in it.

I had a belief in God.

God always had his hand on me.

Through every situation and disappointment I would start to turn away.

I would look at people as if they didn’t exist so to speak.

I looked at everyone as having an agenda and having a plan to break me.

To break me down, to break my heart.

I was alone, I wanted to be.

If the world was like it was I wanted no part of it, I only wanted to exist without being bothered and being counted on.

The people I met, I paid no mind to.

I could say, "yes, you want to be my friend, but why"??

"What is it I have to give you to make you stay my friend"??

Why did I really think that way though?

Because I was unworthy.

I had been hurt so much throughout my life, I really felt I was unworthy to be loved.

It wasn’t an easy journey.

I thought I must be the most worthless person on the face of the earth.

I never once ever tried to kill my self, but I also wondered why.

Why did I want to live in a world that absolutely didn’t know I existed or even cared about me as a person, other than to take something away from me.

I didn’t have the courage to kill myself, and why would I do that??

If noone here cared about me than why in the world would I kill myself because God wouldn’t either.

Doesn’t even make sense but that was my logic.

I knew God then, I may have pushed Him away many times but I knew Him.

I knew He had a plan for me.

I knew that every time I had trouble I my life and this loneliness that never seemed to leave me completely, I knew someone was there.

Every time I cried out, I knew someone was listening, why else did I cry out as hard and as loud as I could?

I was raised with Christian values and beliefs, it was instilled within me.

I wasn’t a bad person, I knew that, but I felt like I might as well be, I’m un-loveable.

If people can’t love you than there has to be something wrong with you right?

Wrong!!

God loves you and he loves me.

He has been there through every single tear to every single laugh.

My life had come such a long way.

Let me tell you about me now.

I am now enrolled in college.

Yes, I am a student.

I am just finishing my 1^st semester.

I am pursuing a degree in Criminal Justice.

I have many friends.

I met some of these people through school, and some of them are instructors.

I met some outside of school.

I have a beautiful, wonderful, amazing son, who is now 7 yrs old.

He is healthy and happy, the love of my life, joy of my heart.

He makes me so glad to be alive.

I have met some wonderful people who have brought much joy into my life and have given me much in love and friendship.

I am living in my own home that I care for.

I pay for it and I take care of it, it is mine.

I am not rich by any means but I am rich in my spirituality and in God, in my Savior Jesus.

I have been a mentor to kids of different ages.

That is not my job but I have friends and even family who come to me for advice and to talk to their kids if they are in need and in trouble.

Yes, I make a difference too, because to some of these kids they feel they have noone, I let them know they always do.

I am happy to do it, I love doing it.

I am great friends with my ex-husband and we are both working towards a beautiful relationship with our son.

I am renewed in my family situation, nothing in this world like saying, "I forgive you and I mean that".

We are all worth being forgiven.

We are all worthy of being loved and cared for.

We all are.

I know if I had noone on this earth that cared about me or loved me, God would.

Jesus died for each and every one of us and did so with pure love.

In my darkest hours and believe me there were many, I always felt that Presence.

I always knew They were with me.

I look at the people around me and see the ache in their hearts for something more something to give them hope and set them free.

I can tell you it is a prayer and a commitment a way.

I have been on my face grateful for the things I have been given, eternal life most importantly.

I am so grateful to be alive now.

I am grateful for knowing what it is like to not feel love or feel like I was not loveable, but I now know what it is like to feel that in it’s purest form, from friends, family, neighbors,& strangers.

And I never want to lose that.

I won’t lose that as long as I have a relationship with The Father and The Son.

I have had many people come to me and ask where do you get your confidence?

How can you be so optimistic about life?

Because I know my life has purpose.

We all have a purpose for being here, trust me it is not to be miserable and unhappy.

Noone was put on this earth to be that way.

Noone!

God loves each and every one of else and we are all special to him.

Our personal relationship with him is what sustains us in this life.

Do I still have problems?

Yes, I do.

Do people still hurt me, let me down?

Yes, they do.

But I have that ability, with God, to handle it and see it as not as a thing I go through alone anymore.

I can handle anything, I have proven that, have I not?

Do I have a right to be bitter and hateful, cold- hearted?

No, I don’t.

That is not my purpose here.

I could be, it is a choice.

I can be closed off if I feel that way, but where does that get me?

Closing yourself off from the world is not a choice for me.

I feel the need to send this out, I feel someone or maybe many, need to know my story and how far I have come.

Is your journey as mine was?

Do you feel yourself alone and at a loss?

Fear not, many are with you, But God is holding you and Jesus is standing beside you.

You are never alone in this world, and I shall pray for your comfort.

Believe in Him that created you and give your sadness and disappointments to Him.

He knows your true heart and knows what you need to be the best you can be.

I have been back and forth between homes, I have been almost homeless a few times.

I have had everyone and noone, in my mind.

I always had Him

He always had me.

We are carried through our troubles with faith and desire.

The faith in believing that God will always be there.

And the desire to know it and see it.

I am grateful for all I have been through, all I will have to go through, because I know I am not alone.

It makes me stronger and when something happens, it doesn’t sway my faith it makes me hold stronger and I will reach out every, single time, to show I am worthy of his love and care and I know in my heart my comfort is only a prayer away.

Believe in your heart it can be the same for you.

Believe in your heart you are someone, because you are.

You are very special, to many but especially to the One that matters.

God Bless each and every one of you.

Thank You, God and Jesus.

I know I am nothing without you ‘but’ I am everything with you in my life.

Thank you,

Vaughn Pascal

Please share this with people who need it and people who may want to know the truth.

I hope it gives some peace and hope to those in many, different, difficult situations!

Posted at 04:59 pm by vaughnpascal
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A Life That Is purpose Driven

A Life That Is Purpose Driven

I started reading the book The Purpose Driven Life about 45 days ago. This book is written by Rick Warren. It is one of the best books I have ever read and It has changed my life. It is a really good book and I am out there trying to get people to read it and acknowledge the difference it makes in your life. I had been waiting to read it since it first came out but I kept putting it off. It took my approximately 40 days to complete it and that is because he ( Rick Warren) wants you to sign a covenant with him stating that you will take that time to realize your life and path that God has chosen fore you. I made the promise and the commitment and I took it to heart. I missed one day in reading that book and the very next day I read two chapters to make up for it. It does take you, going by his directions, approximately 40 days to complete. I started it around the time I wrote the article 40 days and 40 nights. 40 being represented in the bible and a significant number that God has used. I took the time to read this book every morning when I awoke, one chapter a day until I completed it. It has a lot of spiritual information and a lot of information period. I really loved it and I suggest everyone read it. I don’t want to part with my book but I plan to buy at least three more for friends and family and have them pass it on. It is encouraging and enlightening. There are many things one will learn by reading what he has written and I feel it was totally God inspired.

What is one of the greatest gifts you can give to family and friends? I believe it is their relationship with God and the understanding of His words. Jesus paid a great price and having a relationship with God through Christ is an essential part of our being. It is the reason we exist. I also want to mention a movie I watched recently, I had seen it before but I watched it again not long ago. The movie is titled, ‘Pay It Forward’. That is a good example of kindness and love. We tell people who are dear to us, hopefully on a regular occasion how much we care and how much they mean to us. Do you ever go out of your way to help anyone else in need? What and how do you do that? I started thinking how a lot of times people only help and reach out to their immediate friends and family, sometimes we may get encouraged to help a stranger if you hear of a tragedy or devastating experience they have been put in, but do you ever just help because it is a humanely thing to do? Do you ever just offer a hand when it is inconvenient?

I think about all the times I said no when I could have said yes simply because I didn’t make the time or thought I can do it next time. I set down and made another commitment last night. I plan to stick it out also. I have been inspired with 40 as a number in whole. I am going to commit to telling everyone I know that I love them, at least one person a day. I am going to tell them why they mean so much to me and why they make a difference in my life. I actually started last night and it started with my dearest friend, Cristi. I told her that she was my best friend and that I simply loved her. I then proceeded to help out a neighbor in need, I asked my ex husband if he needed to talk, going through a rough time, I wrote 4 of my neighbors letters, not long letters just small tokens of appreciation. I told my son how much I had missed him while he was gone and how much I loved him. I called Jon. I told him I loved him and why. I then went to bed and awoke to many thanks for my thoughtfulness. I called another friend of mine Teresa, and asked how it was going, knowing she has been through a hard time lately. I told her I was here. My sister called. I talked to her told her I was just glad she called, I wanted to see how she was, told her I loved her. I talked to my mom twice both times I told her I loved her. I watched my neighbors little girl while she got things in order to move, she came over, we talked, she said thank you for always being there.

I honestly am not the type of person who needs to hear thank you or I am sorry. I have never expected that, but always appreciated it when it did happen. I make a point in letting people know daily how I feel about them even thought I may not mention it often. This 40 day commitment has been a part of my life for a long time I guess. I am just more aware of it now. I would also like to take one day out of every week and do something for a stranger. Even if it just to say hello. There is a homeless man that I met that I think of often. Something that makes me feel very good is, that when he sees me coming he begins to smile. I see in him a look. It is a look of hope, because most usually when he sees me he knows this is one day I am going to be able to eat. I try to always give homeless people money or something. Even if I see them over and over.

One day while I was out with one of my friend’s son, we saw a homeless man and I said, hand me my purse, and he did, after I gave him a little bit of money and it wasn’t much, just a few dollars, the son turned to me and said, "you know he probably does have money and he is just bumming to get more". What a horrible thing to come out of a child’s mouth. I was in shock really. I mean even though he was a kid, it just made me cringe. I have heard the same thing come out of adult’s mouths too. Or "maybe they are just gonna buy drugs or alcohol with it", or "why can’t they just go get a job". Well there can be many reasons as to why someone becomes homeless, and I will tell everyone this, there was a time in my life where I had no where to go. I was given help by strangers and I was aloud to live in a hotel for about a month. I had no food, no money, no car, and those people at that motel gave me food and a place to stay. They checked on me and they made sure I was comfortable. I had no one in my life at that point in time that I felt like cared, if they did why was I in that situation? I got through that time with faith and God giving me a direct line to strangers who cared enough to say we are here for you. And thanks to God, He got me out of that. I could have easily been that homeless person you see. I do feel sorry for them and I do not know why or how it ended up that way for them. I would love to sit down and figure it out though. I would love to help them more.

You know sometimes by you just saying, I feel for you and your situation, you are giving them the courage to continue on. People can lose everything and everyone in a split second. You don’t know their circumstances and NOBODY has the right to judge these people. I am sure they judge themselves enough as it is. I ask for help for them, because they have no one but you. You can not go out here and save the world. I realized that a long time ago, but you can save someone a moment of sadness just by being a human and feeling for them, say a prayer for those in that situation and give what you can, not just money but a gift of the heart. My heart goes out to everyone in that situation.

My day has not ended yet, I took my friend and her daughter to lunch, I will go take a drive and visit my grandpa who is a veteran today is Memorial Day. I will talk to him and tell him how much I care. I know he gets lonely and sometimes he just needs someone to listen and I love hearing his stories. What a legacy he has passed down with his own stories of life. I will tell him I appreciate that. I will come home and play with my son and be there when the phone rings, for whatever, a talk, a question, if someone needs something I will be there, because I am not here to take something for me but to give back to everyone whom has blessed my life by being a apart of it. I will also go to bed knowing I did the best I could today to help someone who needed it. I will also close my eyes knowing I told someone I care. Doesn’t everyone deserve to know what a difference they make in your life? Doesn’t everyone deserve to know that somebody out there really cares? I do care, I always have, I always will. Thank God I am open enough to see and believe in this world and in you. God Bless You On Memorial Day..

God Bless Each and everyone of you. To all veterans and those whom have passed Thank you for your many gifts and God be with you and your families. Thank you God, for my many, many blessings and thank you Jesus for the greatest sacrifice of all...

I love you Bub!

Vaughn Pascal

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